Dear Mamoo, Four years have flew by. I would go on and on about what I wished I did this or changed that but I have come to the conclusion, these types of wishes cannot be for filled. I can't have a long conversation about our little experiment we would plan, nor can I get you to squeeze the crap out of my cheeks until they go red! Even though I know my wishes cannot be granted I will never be able to 100% except the fact that you have gone. I guess you were too much of an amazing character to let go of. Your thinking that I was just 10 the last time I saw you but in that 10 year I still under stood you were a rare type of person, you were genuine, bubbly, always took everyone else into consideration and most of all you were real. I can't even remember the last time I got called Bains, it used to annoy me but I'm starting to miss it. Gosh, thinking about it properly, I miss everything about you. There is a crack in the whole family and I don't ever think it will be patched back up due to the fact that you have gone. I was only a child when you left, still am to be honest, but now I see things in a different light. Death can come when ever it wants and yours shocked us all, i could believe it first time, I just hoped it was a dream but it was reality, now I know that we shouldn't be attached to anything as you could loose everything to you in a matter of seconds. Love you always, Alisah xo