Finally got round to putting my thoughts and feelings about Jameel onto this. To this day I find it hard not to dwell on what's happened, but just need to remember all the good times and the memories he has left everyone around him. When I heard the news the most heartbreaking thing was to think ahead and know that I'll never get to see him again, I can't express enough how much I want every person to know how obvious it was to me he was a great person in any relation. Be it friend work colleague and such a great family orientated man. I never got a chance to finish my conversation with Jameel and I'll never forget our last chat ! I said 'I'll catch up with you later'' and he said the same and then that was it, I remember finding something funny in work and thought, 'oh I better tell Jameel that when I see him', not knowing I was never gonna see him again. Still to this day I come across things and would like to tell him, or talk about things that have happened in work. I want to write this to Jameel and it may seem a bit bazzar but I don't want to talk about him I want to talk to him because it makes me feel more comfortable even though it may not make sense to anyone reading it...... Two and a half years ago when I first joined my team at work, we were taken into meet them.Gurj made a point of his hands.haha. I never realised at that time, that we would still be cracking jokes a couple of years on !!lol.Not a day went by without some sort of joke being mentioned at work about it. And you took it so well, but gave just as good back, if not better.We had our little group, me u hannah jon sukh jon and sometimes others would get involved, but it was generally us causing a riot at the back of the unit. Back in Macca's team I got to know you better and our friendship grew. We got moved apart but we were re-united back in gurj's team(AGAIN!)lol and sat near eachother so we could have a laugh and joke, just to make the day go quicker.You made those boring glum days better with your ''comedy'' if that's what you wanna call it ! haha. the crap jokes ! but so crap they were funny !lol :D..And I knew you were excited about being back in the team with me even though you tried to deny it!..So many memories that just make me smile, the silly jokes I'd laugh at and the way you would get wound up about Sales, if I'd say something you'd disagree and then you'd find out I was right and then get sore about it ! lol.we soon got over the bicca with a stupid comment and we'd both laugh and that would be the end of it.But we both had respect for eachother aswell even if we did disagree at times, and in the end we both knew it. Remember last year when we entered that competition at work and I won £50 and I said I'd give you half because you inspired my joke, but when I did win I didn't wanna cough up the cash, but you wern't having none of it !haha.And we were both laughing our heads off at how rubbish the other people that entered were and we were trying to find out who they were.lol.I know this probably isn't making alot of sense but it would defo bring back the memory ! Then the month after I catched onto your little game of trying to be sneaky and enter it without me and keep ya comment written down till the last day we could enter it.haha.Nikki got on the defence then about the one I won and you's had an argument about it, it was such a stupid argument it was funny after we thought about it, but you's loved winding eachother up and you loved the banter. When Hannah, Jon and Sukh come into the team that's when things got funnier, 'BEST ACROSS ALL SITES' joke come in and although you were modest, we liked to wind you up and say it like you were big headed.lol.you were a little bit though, you've got admit ! :p haha. I can hear Hannah now screeching ''JAMEEL'' when you'd say something that made us cringe or a dodgy comment, but then we would all laugh for ages and Gurj would shout at us like we were at school.haha.But then out of work we had just as much of a laugh, and on breaks aswell. Nando's, Cosmos, McDonalds, when you come out with me Stu and Jon to the Shakespeare for a drink and them 2 hobbits in the corner! we couldn't make out if they were girls or boys.haha.funny ! At the Christmas party as-well you walked off on us at the Skydome because you said it wern't you scene !...Remember when I seen you in cafe Khans with your wife and I embarrassed you telling her about what your like at work, and then on Monday you said to me, oh trust you to say that.haha.Sorry !.... God knows how many times I called you my uncle Jam in work and you used to say, oh am I not the good looking older brother ?haha. You always looked after me when you could, like when I wasn't driving you gave me lift home on way back from work in the week when you could and we'd chat about your son and what your planning on doing that night etc. I always remember when you seen me at the bus stop in the morning going to work and you drove past me and then went to the top of the road and turned back around to get me. You actually went out of your way to turn around, that really says what type of person you was. So caring and really did go extra for people that you cared about. But I would help you in return like when your car was in for its MOT at the garage and you were debating about paying it etc which was well funny because you don't let anyone pull the wool over your eyes! What about them golden wonder crisps I used to get you from the vending machine at work, and then you were moaning for ages about the orange Ribena you liked as-well in crumbs and they stopped selling it.haha you wern't happy ! :( Remember when me you and Jon went to McDonalds and I was sticking up for ya's because the guy serving you was skyving and just walking round with an empty brown bag making out he was doing something, and hiding behind the burger stand.hahahahaha we had to shout the manager in the end. Everytime I was on a diet you'd say Leanne, what are you doing? just enjoy your food and then you'd laugh at how much I'd eat. One of our last conversation's was you saying this to me....oh my god leanne your gonna be sick if you eat anymore.haha. Not seeing you in work just doesn't feel right, you were part of the furniture and I've never worked here without you, you have been here since day one on the unit and its still strange now knowing that never ever be able to tell you all this and catch up with on everything that I've been up to. I'd love to tell you loads of stuff I know you'd find funny. And this is the thing that hurts so much when I think about it all, the knowing I can't speak to when I want to. You supported me with troubles and gave me good sensible advice as-well as making me feel positive about everything. It's quite obvious to see you were so happy as a person in life,your worshipped your son and your wife you couldn't have spoke more highly of her. Everything you did was for them. I have so much respect for you and I am so pleased to have known you and had you in my life from a young age, as you have made such an impact with what has happened, and truly made me realise the value of life, and the people around me. Your jokes live on. We have got loads of jokes between us lot there's only so much I can say on here.haha. I know this has been all over the place but I wanted our memories to be with the closest to you and people to see how much of a top guy you was to everyone around you. I don't wanna say goodbye, because that'll mean your gone, and your not, your advice stays with me and you are my friend for life. God Bless Jameel I wish we could have just said goodbye properly, instead of having a half finished conversation. Rest In Peace Lots of Love Leanne xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx